Another realization. Open your heart and lend your ears everytime someone's trying to explain something, so you would better understand things that make you feel nega. I was so damn mad last night because i found out that he's lying to me again but after thinking for 100x i realized that it will just affect me and the baby so i free myself from wrath and try to forgive him again. But it doesnt mean that you're open for another devastating lies. I find fault with other people but find it hard within myself. I also do crazy stuffs that make other people uncomfortable and sometimes~mad.
If you forgive people for their little wrongdoings you will be rewarded. Give a little patience when listening to them. I know how hard it is to listen to a person who lied to you but it will be harder on your part if you continue to plant seeds of madness in your heart. Lets all grow up and set aside those childish way of thinking and be happy that inly simple sins are brought to us by our loved ones. Try to look in to other's condition and may be you will realize how lucky you are compared to them. Thank God it didnt happen to you.
FORGIVING PEOPLE WHO SINNED AGAINST YOU IS NOT THAT EASY. I sometimes feel the urge to hit those people physically until they scream for help. Honestly, im not that good at forgiving people most especiall when they did something that is intensely wrong against me. but after various realizations, i figured out that God forgave all of my sins irregardless of its intensity. And i want to prove to Him that i can also make my heart as soft as it can be for me to be able to forgive others. Last night, i was so 'not in the mood' for anything. I posted a lot about how i feel in my twitter account. It just happened that my bf doenst know how to listen and to obey me. We already went to a fight just because of his friends. well, i dont care who they are and what they're doing~what i care about is the truth and always the TRUTH. One of those friends of him posted something that i didnt like and it was the main reason why i got mad. but eventually calmed myself so i could avoid saying harsh words against that girl. I just hope she wont experience the same thing that i experienced from her. And if that day comes, she will know exactly why it happens to her. Let God teach them their lessons. God knows better than I do and revenge is not in my vocab anymore.:)
